I Didn’t Believe in Myself So I Learned to Believe in Something Bigger

I have a vivid imagination but when I tried to imagine my future I couldn’t connect. It felt fake.

I couldn’t trust things would happen for me. I did try persisting harder and nothing moved. I knew by then my problem was faith and connection to the end but I couldn’t see what was wrong.

Paulie is knowledgeable and grounded. I’m a very logical person and she asked me simple questions to guide me to self inquirer. One that stuck with me as if I believed in myself. I didn’t believe I could make things happen for me by natural means or by manifesting.

Through coaching, we had these deep, fun conversations that slowly guided me to faith. I learned that faith isn’t about believing in yourself, it's about trusting in something bigger than you that you can connect with or have a relationship with. You just need to show up in a relationship with what you trust.

One of her methods is a kind of contemplative prayer with imagination. I did that, asking for a husband with very specific qualities. I met him about 2 months later, in December. I thought I’d never meet someone like him. If I had kept giving my past authority over me, then nothing would have happened. Things changed because I gave unconditional love authority over my mind and my heart.

Now we are talking about marriage and what kind of ring I want. Faith really does move mountains. If you feel stuck, if you think it’s impossible, keep the faith. It works.