I Was Tired of Trying to Manifest

I got tired of constantly monitoring my thoughts. I had tried everything, yet manifesting never seemed to bring the big results I was hoping for. After a while, I felt disillusioned. It was exhausting. On top of that, the whole idea of ignoring the 3D left me feeling isolated. I was going through a difficult season and needed friends I could actually talk to. 

There was a man I was interested in, of course. Still, he was low on my list of priorities because I truly had so much on my plate. Even so, it hurt to see everyone else in happy relationships while I was alone.

I knew Paulie wasn’t like the affirm and persist coaches. I was craving something deeper, and I’ll admit that’s exactly what I was searching for.

We began by focusing on getting me out of survival mode. During the first few sessions, I cried more than I had in years. It felt freeing to finally have a space where I could release everything, instead of being warned that talking about my circumstances would ruin my manifestations. I didn’t have to hold myself together for her.

For the first time in a long time, I felt my body relax. She explained God to me in a way that made sense and showed me how everything actually worked. Even when shame came up because of my circumstances, I could still feel loved. That kind of love was different. It reshaped me at the level of identity.

When I started imagining what I wanted, it no longer felt forced. There was no strain. I found myself enjoying the scenes, almost as if I was experiencing them before they arrived.

Something miraculous even unfolded in my family. A relative who had been seriously ill, with doctors expecting very little improvement, suddenly began to recover. There was no clear explanation. I could feel the shift happening, as if I had finally reached a state where I was able to receive. God had never been withholding from me. I simply hadn’t known how to say yes because I didn’t yet understand what it meant to be loved without conditions.

As for the man I liked, even though he wasn’t the main focus of my journey, things began to change there too. He lives in my building. He is a DJ with a vibrant social life and always seemed to have plans on the weekends. I used to watch him and his friends having fun and wish I could be part of it. Then one day, I was invited. It has been three weekends now that I’ve gone to his place. He checks in regularly and includes me whenever he gets together with his friends. I really love that.

Unconditional love has the power to transform not only who you are, but the life you experience.