I Bought The Pearl

I would like to start out by saying that if anyone out there is stuck in effort, you feel responsible for holding your reality together and can’t relax, please read this success story. I used to think this was all about trying harder and I was wrong. I’m going to tell you about my journey and how I got my specific person with the wonderful things I learned in coaching. I did it by buying the pearl of great price, and the old man state hated it.

I was quite good at changing my thoughts, and that did manifest me some things, but the love department was tragic. I could get into a feeling of unconditional love but as all feelings, it wasn’t sustainable.

I did the list method to manifest a partner. And it worked!! Sort of. I met the man a couple of weeks after (I had bought the burning love bundle and used the list instructions from there).

The problem is that this man that I had custom ordered from my imagination wanted nothing to do with me romantically. I was confused to say the least.

I tried to figure out what in me had manifested partial results. I panicked and followed bad internet advice of “just persists, affirm over your emotions”. Nothing happened for months, except me getting more anxious and experiencing emotional whiplash every time I saw my sp. I could at times be on an emotional high from imagining the end, but then I would interact with him, and everything was the same. That kind of disappointment is gutting.

Here’s the solution. I learned there is more than one “I”.

The “I AM”, meaning God, is not the same as the personality “I”. And that “I”  was completely enmeshed with the old man. I had given all my power to circumstances, and I was living from a fake identity given to me by the old man. Trying to manifest from here just drove me further away from God, filling me with shame, fear, and anxiety.

The first skill I developed was observing the old patterns in the body, in the emotional plane, and the identity. I could see the old man state for what it was. The second thing I did was to be aware of the unconditional love of God.

The way that Paulie described him made me fall in love. She taught me how to spend time basking and relishing in his presence and I learned all about the metaphysics for change. It is simple! It’s all about love, not effort at all. But you have to be willing to give up the old identity. There truly is no effort, because it’s not the personal “I” doing it, it’s the “I AM” and nothing is impossible to the God that sees us and knows us better than the old man ever could.

At this stage I was detached from the old man and fully enjoying my real identity in God. I went into the state of the ideal relationship and observed the thoughts that belonged to that state. This part is really important:

Please follow the instructions for the questions. Do not make it about your sp, make it about who you are when you have the ideal relationship. Do not put your focus on the person you are having the relationship with, just focus on the awareness of being you when you have ideal love that can fulfill you. I made the mistake of getting attached to my person as the gatekeeper for my end and delayed my own process.

Be specific only after you have forgiven and forgotten your old identity and your sp’s old story. This is how I did it and it worked fast.

I was enjoying the new me and my sp started to get closer, being flirty and I reciprocated and could stay unattached. He asked me to meet just us and it felt like a date. We were having drinks and he asked me if I was cold while caressing my leg. Then we decided to go to a different bar for a meal and he cuddled me all the way there, trying to find my lips to steal a kiss. I did play hard to get a little bit but still flirted back. At the end of the night that’s when I gave him a kiss. The relationship developed very sweetly. We are best friends, lovers, the whole thing. He took me to the city he grew up in last week. I had never felt so important before. He loves showing me his world and making me part of it.

Now I understand manifestation in a deep way. I’ve mastered it completely and can say there’s nothing to fear ever.