How Detachment Brought My Specific Person Back for Good

I used to stalk my SP. If I posted a story on instagram I would constantly check if he’d seen it. I would ask for signs, and when I got one I would ask for another one. I was stuck in that weird limbo where we weren’t together, but we weren’t really out of each other’s lives either. And the whole friends-with-benefits thing was slowly breaking my heart, even though I pretended I was fine.

Coaching with you was the first time I actually slowed down enough to feel what I was actually feeling and believing in my body, even if I didn’t like it and I could be honest about believing he just didn’t want me. It was really nice to not be afraid of acknowledging that anymore.

You opened my heart to the unconditional love of God, and I’ll always be grateful for that. I was finally peaceful after a long time and I had something I could trust even when I didn’t trust myself.

I stopped focusing on my sp at around week 2.  I didn’t do it on purpose, it’s just that I finally felt good inside myself for the first time in years. After basking and realigning in unconditional love I could go to my ideal relationship.

In four weeks everything was different. I went on that short work trip, posted a few photos, and for the first time ever, I didn’t check to see if he watched them. I barely even thought of him, not from avoidance, but from actual peace.

And out of absolutely nowhere, he texted me asking when I was landing and which airport I was flying into.

At first I thought he just wanted information, but then he said:

“Do you have a ride? I want to pick you up.”

I was sure that man has never picked anyone up from an airport in his life.

When I walked out and saw him waiting by the pick-up area, leaning against his car, the look on his face I knew he was different. He looked softer, like a man in love.

We ended up going out for dinner. He kept reaching for my hand, asking if I was seeing anyone, telling me how good it felt to be around me. And before he dropped me off, he held both my hands and said:

“I want everything with you. I can’t get you out of my head or my heart.”

Since then, he’s been the one initiating everything.

Yesterday he asked me if I would spend Christmas Eve with him and his family.

He said, “My mom keeps asking about you. I want my family to meet my girlfriend.”

it came out of his mouth so naturally. It was one of the inner conversations you suggested when we did the room exercise.

I’ve never felt so good in a relationship, and the idea of being relaxed around him was alien to me. Now I know he’s mine and I feel it.