Circumstances Are Not Final

I met my specific person a couple of years ago. It was instant attraction. The raw animal kind of attraction. I thought I had it made and had met “the one”. I was floating on a cloud as we hooked up over and over. I assumed it was leading to something. But one day he started to pull away. I didn’t want to make a big deal out of it at first, but I got really in my head, and all my insecurities came up.

My attention kept drifting back to the relationship. I’d be constantly replaying conversations to see if I “did it right”. I had always been an overthinker, but this was extreme. He stopped replying to my messages and next time I saw him he introduced me to his girlfriend.

This broke me. It felt like I was good enough to be a hookup but not enough to be publicly chosen. It was humiliating. Having to keep a straight face and pretend I didn’t care in front of him was traumatizing.

I didn’t understand what happened. I looked for answers online and found your Instagram.

I felt a bit torn trying to manifest him, because wanting him after what he did made me feel dumb. You didn’t judge me and shared your story with me. I felt so seen!

The way other people talk about manifestation felt like bypassing to me. You can hold the tension between not bypassing and being grounded, being human, and incorporating the magic of unconditional love and miracles.

You taught me I didn’t have to be strong enough to manifest him back. I had to be soft enough.

My biggest challenge was circumstances. He had me and chose someone else. That felt like a final decision on his part and believing it could change and that I wouldn’t feel like a second choice was unbelievable at first.

I learned that beliefs belong to a state, so I didn’t have to believe it yet. That took so much pressure off.

You taught me to work with my body, with my patterns, and taught me a way of manifestation in which triggers were positives.

Biggest thing I learned was that getting out of survival mode is possible and I learned how to shift states with ease. Contemplating something with the intention of catching the mood is genius and simple.

When I was in the end state, the old version of him was irrelevant. I was in a state of love in which I had my ideal relationship.

Remember how I felt him not choosing me was permanent? That changed.

Once I let myself accept how loved I was the third party went away. He sought me out and apologize for what he did. It felt great to be acknowledged and I forgave him. Told him I understood it was a him issue and he was probably going through a lot to treat me that poorly.

Now that we where back in contact and in good terms, he asked me for another chance. I told him only if he’s willing to talk to me when he’s going through things instead of taking it out on me. He promised he’s changed.

I believe him because I changed too. He’s been very boyfriendy and writes me a good morning text every single morning. He’s been supportive of me and the touching and kissing feels even more intense than before. I got here by choosing the end in which I was always the first choice. And that’s exactly what I got. The third-party episode was just a bad choice of his, and nothing like that will come between us ever again.