After 9 Years of Trying to Manifest Him… He Proposed at Disneyland

When I started coaching with you, I genuinely didn’t know I was living in survival mode. Looking back, I was dissociating half the time, panicking the other half, and calling it “normal.” I thought everyone lived like that. I thought being overwhelmed every other day was just part of life. PMDD made my entire world collapse every month, and I honestly didn’t know there was another way to exist.

I had been trying to manifest my person for eight, almost nine years. I’d get a little movement here and there, and then it would evaporate. Nothing lasted because I could never last. My nervous system was too unstable, and I didn’t know that was even the issue.

Then you taught me that my imagination was a living unconditional love presence.

I don’t know how else to describe it except this:

Have you ever been in trouble for so long that you stop believing anything can change… and then someone walks in and quietly fixes everything?

That’s what your work felt like.

You didn’t teach manifestation like a technique. You taught it like a relationship. Like I could sit with a Presence who loved me unconditionally and had the power to give me anything. It felt like asking someone who adores you for a hug, of course they say yes. That’s how Imagination started to feel for me. A friend that never leaves me.

For the first time in my life, manifestation wasn’t stressful. It was like a warm hug from an abuelita.

My PMDD healed. PMS was just me being tired, not an emotional mess. My spiraling stopped. I became stable, genuinely stable. My friends told me I looked different, like something in my face had relaxed. I didn’t realize how tense I had been for years.

My person came back. It did feel like stepping into a different reality. I wasn’t afraid he would leave again. And he was a new man! Making real plans. Showing up when he said he would. He wasn’t the center of my universe anymore, so I actually got to enjoy him. I didn’t make him the source of love; I let him add to the love I already had.

Last month, he asked if I wanted to go to Disneyland with him.

It still feels surreal writing this… but on that trip, in front of the castle, he proposed.

I said yes. It feels fast, but I have known him for 9 years.

After nine years of trying to manifest him, of tears, panic, obsession, hope, disappointment, and confusion, I finally have the love of my life. And it’s real. It’s stable, a real adult relationship.

And on top of that, because of the financial shifts we worked on, I have more stability than I’ve ever had. The woman who used to live in fight-or-flight now wakes up grateful every single morning. It also means I’ll get to buy any wedding dress I want!

You changed my life, because you taught me what love actually feels like,  inside myself, with God, and now with him.

Thank you and God for giving me back my sanity, health, and a future I didn’t think I could have.